Once again I have been tempted by another tech toy: a new MacBook laptop. My brain had gone through the seemingly endless period of debating whether or not I should get the new computer, and eventually I talked myself into purchasing one online at the Apple website. I had even made a driving trip out to CompUSA to compare the MacBook to the MacBook Pro and decided that the MacBook had a better keyboard to my liking. There it was in my shopping cart…a brand new 2.13 GHz MacBook configured to order with a 200GB drive and 2GB of RAM and I even went through the motions of finalizing the order to begin processing. In a matter of seconds I immediately cancelled the order and received a confirmation email that gave me a sigh of relief.
When I had asked my best friend the night before for suggestions on which Macbook model to get he instantly hit the nail on the head with a question. He asked if the root of my yearning had come from something other than the need for a new laptop and I was caught silent for a moment. He was right and I acknowledged the accuracy of his insight before going into an impromptu self-evaluation that revealed the actual source of my wanting something: boredom (that saying about the idle hands rings true here and now as I type this on my MacBook Pro).
Over the past three weeks I was focused on completing a project for the VA Opera and therefore had no want for anything…I had no time to want with staying busy. This is the same case when I had the part-time Apple job or have an opera performance to rehearse for. When I am occupied with something that is consuming my time and energy I am settled within a comforting sense of structured order. In the midst of this schedule of empty weekends and free weekday evenings I become lazy and unmotivated and seek out stimulation from outside sources that may not be good for me.
Now that I am aware of this it is up to no one else but me to fix it. I recently sent an email to the World Adult Kickball Association and began to work on organizing my poetry archive portfolio, so that’s a good start. Next I would like to tackle this lethargic feeling and get back into my daily workout routine.
In hindsight I am glad that I cancelled the order for the MacBook, for when it comes to computer capability it is good to have too much versus too little. As I surfed the internet today on my silver beauty, I also created an iMovie and burned a new disc in iDVD. I had no problems with the system crashing or slowing down, and I recall that the disc had been completed much faster than when I expected it to be. I guess I can thank the high potential of this multimedia powerhouse I now have sitting in my lap, for a MacBook (though somewhat capable in its own right) may have been a bit slower. Another thing is now that I am typing on this machine at ten past midnight I am warming up to the lighted keyboard and the wonderful iTunes music emanating from speakers of vivid stereo sound. I was temporarily distracted by a misguided want for a new gadget and I am glad that my best friend was there to help me make things clear. Thanks, Brad!
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