Stagnant...

I sit here in the darkness of my living room with only the light of my
iPhone to hold my eyes as I type these words. Slipping into a
suspended sense of reality I am once again caught in my own self-doubt
and I do nothing but write about it. So many things I can achieve
await me outside of my own front door yet I am too frightened of
failure to pursue them. Is this paralytic stance on my part really
from fear or just complete laziness? Only the latter could be true,
for I have been more than well-equipped to adapt in nearly every life
experience brought my way. So if laziness is the prime factor of my
stagnant destiny, then there must be a method of motivation out there
to get me inspired to do SOMETHING for once in my life!

I am my own worst enemy and this is so apparent after once again
resisting the urge to use my credit card for another random online
purchase. Not only am I unwilling to go after my dreams, but I am
allowing temptation to lure my own idle mind into potential trouble.

I have already made up my mind that tomorrow will be the new start to
a dedicated workout routine of weightlifting and running throughout
the week. I just have to maintain the drive to stay committed to this
new way of life for myself so that in turn everything else will fall
into place. I can either be my own best hero or worst enemy, and it is
time that I chose the proper side if I am to be prosperous at all in
this lifetime.