Beautiful Morning

It is now Friday morning and I have taken the whole day off from work to do some exercising before having to leave for Richmond to perform another show. It feels so relaxing to get rest instead of rushing around the house to get ready for the office, and I'm going enjoy every minute of it! :)

I have gradually gotten back into working out with my free weights at home and can see a difference in my physique. My upper body has been growing a bit and actually feel good when I look in the mirror. The only frustrating thing is my not having enough cardio to do. I really like to run outside with my iPod nano and Nike Sport kit, but the weather has been too cold and I don't really like running the treadmill at the house. Other than that I am feeling pretty good overall to where I decided to take last night off and eat pizza and drink alcohol. Not the best way to stay in shape, but I think I earned a free night as long as it was done in moderation.

A funny thing happened last night to my TyTN 2. In the middle of a phone call it suddenly went dead and made a constant buzzing noise. Pressing buttons and sliding the phone did absolutely nothing as the screen remained black and the unit continued buzzing! Luckily I had my Nokia E90 next to me, so I quickly took the battery out of my TyTN 2 (which finally stopped the buzzing) and placed my SIM card into it to resume my previous call. This is incident really has me concerned for the reliability of my HTC device and I am nervous to use it again as my main phone. Even though it has been working fine since I turned it back on again I am still keeping my SIM in the E90 for the time being.

This is a bad situation and I am really looking forward to the arrival of my Treo 750 from AT&T today. It doesn't have all of the features of the TyTN 2, but it at least has 3G, a good qwerty and Windows Mobile. What is such a shame is that I have been growing accustomed to my TyTN 2 over the past few days of using it. It is really a good alternative to my E90 with its smaller size and touchscreen navigation even though the battery life and multimedia need some improvement. Even though the arriving Treo 750 may be in the same boat in regards to the battery, I think I still may have the extended life battery that I had purchased previously for my Treo 680. The E90 is a wonderful phone and I enjoy using it, but every now and then I get a bit bothered by its bulk and its
non-touchscreen interface. Sometimes Symbian can appear to be slower than Windows Mobile 6 in terms of performance and no good quality camera can convince me to overlook that. Using the TyTN 2 through the day has been a great experience with its responsive touchscreen, and a need for a quality pictures and 30fps video hardly comes up. Though I plan to keep my E90 beast indefinitely, I guess I am just changing my taste in smartphones according to what my needs are on any given day. Either way, I am glad to have the privilege of owning a variety of qwerty smartphones to choose from. It's good to be a tech-addict...no matter how financially strapped I am!

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

Nokia Morph Concept (long)

I look at this video and then at my E90, N95 and N93 and think WTF!

Treo 750 is coming.

I personally find myself to be going back and forth between my Nokia E90 and HTC TyTN II every other day and it feels good to have this kind of variety. Lately I have been using my TyTN II a lot more during the day instead of my E90 and I believe it's due to the ease of email and messaging, the touchscreen and the smaller size. I don't have much use at all for the E90's camera or its music player, so multimedia is not really as important as it used to be. Honestly, the E90's widescreen is the ultimate champ in browsing the web, but the TyTN II's screen is sufficient and even better with touchscreen access.

With my financial troubles of having to pay down debt I am not able to spend money on unlocked phones anymore, but I did get a new phone from AT&T! Due to my length of time with the company I was eligible for an upgrade credit on any new phone available through AT&T Premier, but there was a problem. I found that even with the upgrade credit all of the available PDA smartphones were too expensive, so I was limited to only refurbished units. After a couple days I eventually decided that my best choice was a refurb Treo 750 for $75. Minus the wifi and resolution, this Treo can offer the same fuctionality of the Windows Mobile OS and provide excellent support for one handed usage. From a practical standpoint this unit can immediately be adopted into my personal network since I already use Missing Sync software with my TyTN II, and that is very convenient! I remember owning the Treo 680 a while back and really liked the form factor of the device even though the aging, boring Garnet interface needed work. So with this preowned Treo 750, my collection of smartphones shall basically be complete with three different form factors: clamshell, slider and block.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

To upgrade or not to upgrade.

Last night I found myself in a very interesting situation that involved having to choose an upgrade device for my AT&T account. Since there really wasn't a substantial discount other than the usual reduced device cost from a 2-year contract, I decided to focus on the refurb units. Right then I could see that my choices were limited to a only a few: Palm Treo 750 ($75), AT&T 8525($65), BlackBerry 8820($100), BlackBerry 8310($65) and HP iPAQ hw6925($50).

While there appears to be a good number of devices to choose from, other determining factors start to narrow down my choices even further. From an economic stand point it would be much easier to get a Windows Mobile phone since I am using Missing Sync software with my TyTN II. But I must be careful not to duplicate what I already have, so the AT&T 8525 is automatically ousted. Another important aspect of my choice is form factor. I currently own qwerty devices in slider and clamshell form, so I believe that a block would be a fitting addition to round out my collection. From this determination there are only two devices that stand out from the group, the Treo 750 and HP iPAQ hw6925.

I of course like these two over the BlackBerry models due to their compatibility with Windows Mobile and my syncing software. While a BlackBerry may be the crème de la crème for mobile emailing, I need to have much more functionality than that in my daily usage. Touchscreen access for efficient navigation would also be a huge plus along with a decent qwerty keyboard. This is why my decision has come to be between the HP iPAQ and the Palm Treo. While experience tells me to go for the Treo 750, curiosity and my wallet tell me to go for the iPAQ hw6925. Since these reduced models are locked to the AT&T network, they would only serve as seldom backups in a time of casual boredom or complete desperation.

I will have to research online reviews of both devices for fair comparison shopping, although my gut is telling me to go for the Treo 750.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

CareerBuilder.com

This is the one commercial that gave me the sign to go back to school for a new career. It is so funny how this guy and I have the exact same dead-end job! Seeing this on TV really gets me motivated to do my absolute best in technical school!

Nokia E71 temptation

I am currently in another predicament with my addiction to smartphone devices and I am in a tough spot once again. Apparently this new successor to the Nokia E61i looks like a promising piece of work with features that practically reflect those of my E90. But the additional feature of having American 3G compatibility is all the more reason as to why I am so interested in this device. To be able to have the same reliable features of my E90 in a different form factor would be a worthwhile chance to take once the E71 is released to the public, and I am anticipating it with much excitement.

However, despite my eagerness to see this phone up close I also know that buying it will have to be nothing more than pure fantasy. Oh well.

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

Email Client Concerns

For today I have to place my SIM card back into my TyTN II for the sake of tethering my MacBook Pro at my cubicle. So far I am happy to announce that I have successfully updated the firmware of my iPhone tablet with no trouble and did not get locked out of access to user operation due to lack of a SIM card! As juvenile as it is I cannot help but get a kick out of those wiggling home screen icons! Other than that nothing much else is really beneficial about the iPhone without wifi, unless I would need an iPod Touch-like alternative for iTunes content.

As I use this TyTN II once in typing this blog entry there is one thing that does come to mind: email client efficiency. From personal experience it is apparent that the Nokia E90 and TyTN II have a different approach to the organization of emails in their native client applications. While the E90 is much more featured than the TyTN II its email client is not as organized. I can appreciate the ability to create folders in the root menu to group specific emails together on the TyTN II, but it's a shame that the E90 is so limited. I am thinking that since I am getting into ECPI soon it would be very helpful to have such an efficient email system. Either way I still find myself drawn to my Nokia for its excellent performance in other areas.

On this note I shall now switch my SIM back to the Nokia E90.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

Nokia E90 is still the one

Just moments ago I had just finished filling a 6GB microSD card with video content that mostly consists of music videos and three feature length movies. I previously had about 5GB of digital music on the card, but soon grew bored with it all wasting space since I became so dependent on the iPod for music. It is a little after 1 in the morning and I know as well as anyone that I should be in bed right now, but this E90 kept me captivated for the past few minutes with the flawless playback of a movie. I can honestly say that watching a movie on my E90, especially in full screen mode, is comparable to the quality of my MacBook Pro and any TV screen! For a brief moment one can almost forget that they are watching a movie on a widescreen smartphone, and that is simply an amazing feat to pull off in the mobile gadget industry. So many other devices offer features that don't always measure up to their potential and even my beloved E90 can be included due to its lackluster GPS. But in this instance my Communicator has amazed me once again with its capability.

Earlier this evening I had taken some time to explore my N95 which had been left by the wayside with my hopes of it being sold. Although there are some redeeming qualities about this slider device with its sharp Symbian software and 5 megapixel camera, it cannot help but pale in comparison to my E90. Despite its bulkiness it is still my most reliable gadget to this day that basically serves as a tech toy Swiss army knife! At one point I was even swept up in nostalgia and looked into possibly getting a refurbished Nokia 9300 Communicator for $50 with an upgrade credit from AT&T! After thinking things through I eventually decided that would not be a wise move since I would essentially be going backwards just for the sake of bragging rights (I actually called and found out they were no longer in stock, but that's not the point).

Either way, I am still amazed at how much I have been willing to stay devoted to my trusty E90 through all this time. I can admit that it was foolish of me to sell that other red model I used to have, but we all have to learn our lessons someday. All I know is that my current mocca E90 Communicator is all I really need to feel content and sufficient in regards to my smartphone needs...usage with the N810 is icing on the cake! I actually feel sorry for people who are willing to put up with mediocre devices just to maintain a low bill, for there are ways to maximize the potential of one's phone choice by thorough research of features and plans. It may take a little bit more effort for some folks, but Americans need to realize that lightning fast 3G speed shouldn't have to be displayed on the cramped screen of some free upgrade of a low grade flip phone with a paltry feature set.

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

Default Themes for E90

With any smartphone it is normal to get the urge to customize it in any possible way to get the best user experience, and I have done exactly that with my Nokia E90. From a few productivity applications to some interface themes, I refreshed the appearance and usage of this reliable smartphone many a time and have come to enjoy it. However, there are some third-party themes that cause the efficiency of my E90 to suffer and I didn't realize this until now. These particular themes are not made by Nokia as default apps, so I believe that they aren't optimized to the fullest potential for operating in S60. One favorite theme was in use for at least two months and I became accustomed to the operating lag times of my Communicator. It wasn't until I had all of a sudden returned to a default theme that I realized just how slow the interface really was, and I was shocked.

As a result I am making the choice to remain devoted to only default themes for my E90. The newest theme I have recently found is the new S60 metal theme from the official Nokia S60 website and it looks much better. Any theme that is not optimized for S60 will hereby be gone.

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

Life Is Sacred.

As quirky as this video is, I am certainly feeling the need to reconsider my life in the big city. The view of the landscape is simply amazing.

TyTN II "red light" special

After completing the previous blog entry about my Nokia E90, I took notice to the low battery meter and immediately put it on the charger. As it remains on the nightstand getting much needed juice, I have decided to break out my TyTN II for another blog entry about a technical issue.

Earlier this morning it was brought to my attention that there is a serious problem with large numbers of AT&T Tilts mysteriously dying. A fellow YouTube member called this problem the "Red Light of Death" and unfortunately was gaining firsthand experience. I then went online and did some research and found that this situation involves the device suddenly becoming unresponsive with nothing more than a red light flashing.

While there have been a number of accounts about this happening to certain Tilt owners, there appears to be a solution. Some folks have claimed that it is a simple matter of the battery not having a solid connection within the device, so they found ways of giving it a more snug and secure fit.

This issue appears to be affecting only AT&T Tilt owners, so I am not too concerned about it at all.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

Nokia E90 still going

In the midst of all the new smartphone models that are being released in the start 2008 I am without a doubt being tempted. From one brand to another there are so many choices for new devices that it's amazing, but not many of them have really captivated me.

I still find myself constantly relying on my Nokia E90 for my daily usage and it feels absolutely great! From the full qwerty to the camera to the media player and the ringtone which also says aloud the calling contact, I am simply in love with my Nokia. While my HTC TyTN 2 is still a reliable back-up I am entirely devoted to my Communicator despite its bulkiness. Out of every smartphone that I have ever owned previously it is my E90 that definitely takes convergence to a whole new level and surpasses them all effortlessly.

As much as I am impressed by some of the new incarnations of mobile technology, I must admit that to a certain extent they seem to offer predictable features but in different forms of execution. When one looks past the overall design and really examines the interface and features, there is most likely to be an onslaught of boredom and monotony. Even Nokia tends to bore me with their new releases, and the most notably that come to mind are the N96 and N82. For right now I am content to know that my E90 and TyTN 2 are sufficient enough to give me the best of two capable operating systems, and I would have it no other way...if it weren't for my finances! :)

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

V-Moda Vibes

Right now I am taking a much needed break from the paperwork monotony that is my job...my prosperous and promising career as a detail clerk! It's not that I don't love my job, but I just need some time to escape every now and then to take advantage of those 15 minute breaks granted to me. Fifteen minutes of peace, quiet and bliss before having to throw myself into the clutches of that damn cubicle again for another round of "file this, fax this, copy this, pull this", such an engaging single-player game for any bored dead-end job recipient!

No matter how boring the days may get inside my cube, I can always rely on my iPod Classic 80GB to see me through and cheer me on. Whether it's a memorable one-hit wonder, a dramatic showpiece, a captivating podcast or a pleasant audiobook, the iPod speaks to me as I walk through the valley of the shadow of employment. In hopes for my eventual release at the end of the business day I hold on to my iPod like a lifeline hanging by a single thread of sanity. Of course, what makes my time spent with the iPod even sweeter is a good pair of quality in-ear headphones.

Over the years I have gone through my fair share of headphones and even splurged a couple times to get my hands on the high-priced Shure brand. At the end of the day, however, it's only the V-Moda Vibes that have managed to find that balance between high aural quality and reasonable pricing. Honestly, I used to think that
V-Moda's $100 retail price point was absolutely too high for my taste, but eventually learned that I do get what I pay for. That's not to say that the most expensive brand names always offer the best quality for everyone's ears, for I have learned that first-hand. But it does suggest that one does not have to settle for terrible sound for the sake of their wallet.

After trying in-ears from the $43 Sony MDR-EX51 model to the HORRENDOUS Apple model to the $80 JBL Reference model, I discovered that the V-Moda Vibes offer the best experience in overall listening and comfort. The rubber seals provide an atmosphere of complete silence and remain in place even when I run outside or on the treadmill, allowing me to enjoy the vibrant sound that is produced by my iPod. From the first time I put on the V-Modas I noticed how vivid every piece of audio had become in comparison to other brands I had used before. There is never any muffled sensation from the buds being inside my ears and the bass is well-balanced with treble. Playing at maximum volume isn't necessary since the sound is so clear even at the middle range. Most audiophiles may not see V-Moda as being on the same level as the more expensive Shure, but I have personally tested a pair of Shures for myself and my ears couldn't tell the difference. Whether this is a matter of an overrated brand or my inexperienced ears is not really an issue as long as I am pleased with the sound quality. I can definitely say that V-Modas have done the absolute best in providing a most pleasurable sound from my iPods, and I will continue to consider them for future in-ear headphone purchases.

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

Life is Beautiful

At this moment I am still somewhat speechless and left without words after seeing the movie "Life is Beautiful". Aside from the moving performances of the three central actors portraying an optimistic Jewish man, his wife and young son there is a strong message about accentuating positivity through all things negative. I won't provide any details on the plot of the film for the sake of spoiling it for those who haven't seen it, but it is definitely a must-see for any lover of true cinema artistry. Honestly this Italian foreign film is ranked at the same level with Cinema Paradiso and Like Water for Chocolate. There were a few times when I did shed some tears during some magical scenes and heart-wrenching moments.

What I have learned from this movie about putting my best foot forward in all that I do will stay with me forever, especially as I look forward to go to school. No matter what negativity is trying to consume me there is always a way to see the situation in a positive light.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

Sony Ericsson Xperia X1 - Take 2

Just when I thought that Sony Ericsson was a done deal never to be looked at again, it comes out of the dark with this beauty. The fact that it has a qwerty, is compatible with American 3G and runs Windows Mobile with a NEW interface instead of the buggy Symbian UIQ is amazing! I am keeping an eye for its release in the second half of 2008 more so than the Nokia N96.

Nokia N96 world exclusive hands-on

While I may not be completely moved due to the absence of a qwerty, this N96 doesn't look bad at all. This makes me eager to see the new Eseries line.

TyTN II returns

Over the weekend I have had a discovery about my TyTN II font appearance courtesy of a great informer from YouTube. Most Windows Mobile device owners already know that the default fonts of the interface menus look jagged and pixelated due to the resolution of the QVGA screen. While this may not bother many people it sure does bother me, so I have always wanted to do something about it.

I was told that there is a feature called ClearType on my TyTN II that can be enabled to have the fonts take on a different look. This new softer look allows the fonts to have a much smoother appearance with rounded edging, which resembles the high resolution screens of other devices such as the Toshiba G900. Once I enable this feature from the Settings menu I am astonished by the immediate improvement to the screen of my TyTN II!! To have the clean look of the Toshiba G900 without the unstable software bugs is a huge benefit, but there is a catch: it only works in portrait mode, not landscape mode.

After a few moments of sulking I begin to resign myself to the prospect that maybe landscape ClearType just isn't meant to be, but I come back to my senses and refer to Google! It turns out that I am not the only one who has suffered from this situation, and better yet there is a solution: a free software registry editor called PHM RegEdit. While I am not exactly sure what a registry editor is, I assume that it is an app which grants a user total access to the inner workings of their device. Once I open PHM RegEdit I follow a few directions from online and VOILA!!!!! I HAVE CLEARTYPE ENABLED IN LANDSCAPE MODE!!!!

This facelift all of a sudden brings my TyTN II almost to the same playing field as my Nokia E90! Even though the camera is not on par with the Nokia, I have a renewed sense of ownership with my TyTN II and am currently enjoying daily usage with it. Skyfire may not be all too pleasing to me right now, but this landscape ClearType more than makes up for it!

I can officially say that the iMate Ultimate 9502 is no longer on my radar anymore and it's a **** shame that iMate has been delaying its release for so long. By the time it comes to the market I wouldn't be surprised if it ends up being obsolete.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

MacBook Air/Skyfire/headphones

This past Friday has indeed been very exciting with the release of the Skyfire web browser for the Windows Mobile platform and I was eager to install it on my TyTN 2 device. I surfed the web for 45 minutes and still have much to learn about navigating the new interface, but my opinion of it isn't entirely positive. The interface appears to be an average mobile browser with only menu symbols at the top of the page with no address bar in sight whereas Opera Mobile closely resembles a full-fledged computer browser. Using the touchscreen of the TyTN 2 is convenient in finding my way around web pages which are uploaded very quickly whenever I summon them via the address bar text field. While page uploading is fast, sliding the stylus tip from one area to another is sometimes hampered by temporary freezing for about 5 seconds. Although traversing a page is not as fluid as the iPhone or even the Nokia S60, I am definitely impressed by Skyfire's ability to playback internet videos. YouTube videos start up just fine with loud and clear audio, but the video feed itself seldom becomes choppy as it is loading. Double tapping an area on the page allows me to zoom into it, but there is no method to frame the magnified text or image within the screen view to prevent scrolling. Another issue is that multi-line text editing at this time is not supported yet, so typing paragraphs onto YouTube message responses and online forums is not possible. As time goes on and I become more familiar with Skyfire's foreign layout I hope that future updates will make this app more interactive and fluid. One more thing is that I have a concern about Skyfire privacy rules in regards to recording all of my browsing data and keeping it for records purposes. Although my identity will not be associated with the obtained information I have a fear of going to any secure website such as online banking. After reading a few opinions from other people on howardforums.com on this matter I think the best solution will be to use Skyfire only for general browsing and nothing more. YouTube and howardforums are the only sites where I have provided my username and password and I believe that is enough for now. Despite their inability to playback online videos, Opera Mobile and Nokia S60 are still great browsing alternatives for me whereas Skyfire beta is a little bit green. We'll see how this new competitor makes a name for itself in the coming future.

I visited the Apple store and finally took a close look at the MacBook Air. I can honestly say there is absolutely nothing special about this other than its amazingly thin profile which is only possible through a number of sacrificed features normally expected from other laptops. I am not moved by the pricing at all, especially since the footprint is still the same size of a MacBook and the processing power is considerably lesser. If the MacBook Air were much more compact I could begin to understand the price, but to spend $1800 on a portable that's the same size as a full-fledged MacBook laptop with less features for the sake of thinness sounds unreasonable. Needless to say, my MacBook Pro isn't going anywhere anytime soon. :)

I also visited the Apple store to shop for headphones since my beloved pair of V-Moda Vibes had played its last tune not too long ago. Originally at the time my V-Modas had died I had no choice but to settle for a cheaper set of headphones: Sony MDR-EX71s. At $43 this model had been my first time in using in-ear headphones a few years ago and I really liked the sound it produced. But as time passed I discovered better alternatives from JBL and eventually V-Moda which were more expensive at $100. After getting paid recently from the Opera I had a chance to get these pricey in-ears for myself, but after over an hour of self-debating I decided to keep my Sonys. I instead spent $30 for a belt-clip case needed for my iPod Classic 80GB and I felt much better about my decision. That additional $100 I would've spent on the V-Modas later went toward paying off debt via my online bank account.

It seems like living on only my checking account and struggling to stretch my money and pay down debt has truly changed my outlook on spending. As I pondered over getting the headphones I began to think how silly it was of me to waste time on the issue when I already have a capable pair that work perfectly. With that revelation I made my decision and never looked back. I guess I am growing up...finally. :)

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90

ECPI enrollment

I have great news! All of the paperwork has been completed for ECPI and I am now officially a student with a start date of March 17th! It is so bizarre to know there's a likely chance that I will be making at least twice to three times my current salary after graduating in two years! For a long while I had been avoiding school, but now I know it is the right time to do it again for the sake of my future.

I am determined to put forth all of my best efforts to take advantage of this moment to make something out of myself. I still have hard feelings about not finishing my term in the Air Force, and I haven't really found satisfaction from acting, singing, making online videos or writing poetry. Despite my nerves and fear of failure I will see to it that I complete this schooling and graduate with my degree. However, my schedule will be EXTREMELY hectic with very little free time during the week. Weekends are free even though I may use much of it for school work and studying.

TRENT
Sent from my TyTN II

E90, TyTN 2 & ECPI

Yesterday morning I switched to my TyTN 2 as my main phone for the day and learned something new and very important. The Nokia E90 that I usually use is not optimized for American 3G so I configured the network setting to work as "GSM only" instead of "Dual" mode for both GSM and 3G. I figured it wise to make this move on my E90 since it was wasteful to the battery to have the device searching for nonexistent European 3G signals along with worldwide GSM. Once I switched my SIM card from my E90 to my TyTN 2 and powered it on, I noticed that the AT&T network was not connecting to my device whenever I tried to check email or make a call. After a few minutes of pondering I finally guessed that switching the network mode of my SIM card on the E90 may have had something to do with the situation. At that point I placed the SIM back into the E90, changed the network setting back to "Dual" mode and then switched back to the TyTN 2. Everything began working as normal and I had absolutely no trouble through the day with the HTC as my main phone.

However, on this morning I have changed back to the E90 and am loving the heck out of it! As I type this blog entry on its expanded qwerty and listen to the music of Ennio Morricone playing from its stereo speakers I feel very much at home with it. Being privileged to experience all of its features continues to convince me that no BlackBerry, Motorola, Palm, Samsung, ETEN, iMate, Apple or HTC will ever win my loyalty like Nokia has. At one point I did have my 6GB microSD filled with feature films courtesy of HandBrake and VisualHub on my Mac, but have since then replaced them with an extensive library of digital music previously ripped to a desktop harddrive. Watching a movie on the E90's internal widescreen is great but not as pleasing as listening to music while writing with its qwerty keypad. I guess that movie playback was at least great for tutorial purposes on YouTube. This E90 consistently impresses me with its potential every day and I am certainly glad that I decided to return to it again. I may check up on the status of my device upgrade with AT&T, but a part of me thinks that I may not need it at all.

During this past weekend on Saturday I took the entrance exam at ECPI, a local technical school in Virginia Beach, and I passed it! While reading and writing were huge strengths for me, the math was not as great in terms of my performance. But since I will be able to take refresher courses in math I have no worries at all about that. The current plan of action is to fill out enrollment paperwork on Thursday and await my first day of class on March 17th shortly after my birthday on March 2nd. For the first term I will attend night classes after my full-time work at Chubb and must learn to better manage my time with such a hectic schedule. If I really want to achieve my goal of earning a technical degree then I will find a way and the will to make this happen. At this moment in my life it seems to be the only way that I can break the monotony of my dead-end job that has been plagued by complacency and boredom.

Despite my being eager to go back to school I am definitely scared of failure. But at the end of the day I must realize that I am in control of my own destiny and that no one can stop me from following my dreams. I can only stop myself by constantly worrying about the unknown, so it is best that I stop it here and now and write of it no further. I WILL do well at this school and WILL do the best I can!

TRENT
Sent from my Nokia E90