Last Day as a Free Man

I am right now sitting here at a Panera Bread on a Sunday afternoon and contemplating just how my life is going to be changed in a matter of hours. Soon I will be back into the habit of lugging around a backpack filled with books and binders and writing supplies, and I am hopeful that it will be for the best of my future.

Befrore the orientation this past Thursday I was of course scared out of my mind, but right now I am very calm and ready to face my first night of class. So far I will be taking two courses for a month and then the curriculum will change to two different courses for he next month. This is to continue for the next 18 months and I am determined to see them through to my graduation.

I sit here and cannot help but look back to all those previous years of my steadfast avoidance of school. Although I sit here and feel so composed with the thought of furthering my education, I was really afraid to face this in my past for fear of failure. But what's funny is that even if failure is destined for me, I think that I am nontheless ready for it. There is so much more that I would like to do in this one life that I have to live and so many passions that I would like to pursue. Not that I am giving any sort of attention to not seeing this schooling through, but if I find that it really is not for me I will have to only move on to the next plan of action. I have accomplished a good number of things so far in my life in regards to life goals: I have been on television as an anchor for my high school and NNPS Channel 47 and worked behind the scenes as a producer, I have won a silver medal as a video editor in a VICA State competition, I was voted "Most Likely to Succeed" by my high school class, I have completed military training in the US Air Force and proudly served my country while I was active, I made the best of holding down TWO dead end jobs that could barely pay for my car note and survived by the grace of my parents, I have conquered weightlifting and running with the help of my iPod nano and Nike Sport kit (and looked damn good doing it) I have performed as an actor and singer for both a community and professional theater company, I conquered Opera singing, I managed to last more than five years at a Fortune 500 insurance company, I have learned to mature and yet maintain my youth, I have learned to love myself as well as others around me (even when I didn't feel certain ones didn't deserve to be). No that I have gone through all of that I am actually realizing just how special I really am! There is really something to me and I must never lose sight of that as I continue to go through this life!

Here's to hope, here's to balance, here's to success, here's to prosperity...I pick up my Chai Tea Latte and drink to them all!

TRENT
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