Destination Unknown

I sit here in the midst of my 15 minute break at my office job and I think about the upcoming interview I have to do at ECPI tomorrow afternoon. Fear and excitement prevail in my brain as I worry about the future and the potential that I have to make the most of it. Will I be motivated enough to see the next achievement through to the end and not leave my efforts abandoned in mid-stream? Will I have what it takes to even be considered worthy of the technical programs ECPI has to offer? Will I be able to go to school full-time and acquire a degree in best way possible? Will I find a job once I graduate the tech school? Will I graduate?

This is all before the interview has started!

While I admit that there is a good amount of fear in this situation, there is also an equal amount of hope if not more. I am mostly afraid of failure and leaving the complacency of my five year office position. Five years is the longest that I have been at this job and I have surely come across some good people, so my eventual departure from it will have quite an effect on me. At the same time there is a yearning to flee the monotonous nature of my occupation and see what else is out there in my destiny, for I know that working in one place cannot last forever. I am to the point now where nothing seems to matter anymore with my position and I must try even harder to find positivity in all that I do. I am not happy but must do what I can to meet the responsibility of keeping my finances intact and in good standing.

Back to work I go before the day is over.

TRENT
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